What consumes your mind, controls your life.

My last post was pretty emotional. It was quiet the emotional week to be honest. I am glad that I got it all out now. I see the world through new eyes, and with a closed heart!

So, remember I told you that on this farm “challenges” come in small swells, well last week we had a tsunami of a change. We have now moved around fodscf6446rty something yearlings into stables to begin preparation for the National Yearlings sales in Cape Town next January. I must say I handled the change pretty well, still very much getting used to this “in charge” story. It’s not as easy as it looks being in charge, especially if no one sees you like that. It doesn’t help when your voice sounds like a mouse with tonsillitis, and you’re as small as a pebble amongst the boulders. It’s quite hard, but trust me this mouse can lose it too. I have lost it quite a few times already, but have learned that it doesn’t get you anywhere.

For example, I had once situation last week where I could’ve used some calming words for sure. I am not too sure of how to put this story into a political way so I will just share the point with you, the point is…I CAN catch a foal, I CAN wrestle a foal to give it a treatment, I CAN walk a yearling, I CAN hold a mare for the vet. Uh, it’s slightly frustrating being told to be careful 24/7, and being pushed to one side because a MAN can do it better. I wouldn’t do this job if I was scared? Anyways, I make the most of it by picking up a broom where I can and personally doing all of my treatments, BY MYSELF, even if the horse is crazy, I go the mile because that is the person I am.

How do you earn an authority position? I don’t know how to do this, I always thought that being the boss and making decisions was my thing…but it’s harder than it looks. Here is where it gets confusing, if you are given a position of authority and responsibility and then every time you try to earn it you get scolded for doing it wrong? Does this make any sense? This is why it’s so confusing, I am trying extremely hard to earn this position and it keeps slipping out of my fingers. Don’t give up, keep on keeping on. Yes, yes I know.

My goal this week…my goal this week is to be strong. I may be small, but I have a big heart, my Mom’s fire, and my Dad’s wisdom. I CAN do this, God would not have given me this position if He thought I couldn’t do it. That is a really encouraging thought. Plus, I must learn to stand up for my opinions. Why would you give me the authority to make a decision and then tell me it’s wrong. No, this week I am standing up for myself! And I am not going to complain about anything  … no matter how SMALL it is. No matter what is it, work, the weather, no hot water, no water at all, bad hair day, anything and everything. I will not complain about anything! Challenge accepted!

After a nice week of sleep due to no mares that felt like foaling, and a nice off weekend I am ready to kick some bum this week! No complaining, no worrying, just smiling, having a good time, being positive…it cant be that hard. I think the world thrives on negativity and anger and complaining, it’s very easy to fall into the same trap when you work with people who thrive on it. My Mom always told me that we become the people we spend our time with. Time to stand out, and realize that this is not how you want to live all the days of your life…Don’t fall into the trap, take your knife and cut yourself out, break out from that circle of negativity. Let your light shine, and keep spreading that light.

That was a whole bunch of feelings in one post. The season is almost over and with the yearlings coming I feel like we have started the season all over again. One way to keep us on our toes! Still very excited to be staying for another year. I have made my house a home, I have my cat, and my family is in the same time zone. Life is GOOD.

Until next time, spread your light this week! Go on, spread it, what are you waiting for?

Like a wild flower; she spent her days allowing herself to grow, not many knew of her struggle, but eventually all; knew of her light. – NIKKI ROWE

Only dead fish go with the flow.

Excuse me for just a minute. This post is in no way related to horses but I need to share something.

Will there ever come a day where we truly understand the human race?

When I was growing up my parents taught me to give 110% at everything I did, if someone asked something of me I would do that and more. My payment is the satisfaction that I could help someone, see them smile and know I was the reason. Now we get to the part where in return people won’t do that for you.  They want the world handed to them on a silver spoon but when it’s time to share the spoon…all of a sudden it’s missing. That is a weird analogy, but you get my point. It’s pathetic.

Now, here comes the bomb shell.  Do I change because I am burning out day in and day out doing favors and giving my all for people who wouldn’t even think twice for doing the same thing for me? Is it wrong that I can’t say “no”? How do you say “No” in a world who would turn their back on you in a second if you say that simple word? Who would despise you and throw you away in a breath even if you had given everything and more for them. None of that matters. Are you then considered a “people pleaser” for not wanting to say “no” for that reason? Personally, I think that is bullying. To turn your back on someone for not doing what YOU want them to do.

What do you do? Do you change and learn to say “No”, and be selfish because someone wont do the same for you? Jesus surely didn’t change because of silly thing such as this? It still hurts though. This is also where “friendship” is questioned…are you my friend because you just want something or are you my friend because you truly want to be?

I am not going to change who I am because of this, I just needed to share this point…one little drop in the ocean causes a long ripple.

Go and lend a helping hand people, and do more than is asked of you. Even though they probably won’t do the same for you…you have a greater God watching and we know that He watches everything! It does hurt and I am still figuring out how to cope with that part, but just remember God knows. Another point to the story though…if you want someone to do something for you…think first if you can or would do the same if and when that person needs you too!

#dontjudge #just something to think about

When One Door Closes

Oh my gosh, I haven’t posted in a while. Where did September go? At the beginning of September I was counting down the days until my family came to visit me, that came and went as quick as you could blink an eye. My sister even stayed with me for TWO weeks after that, and she went home yesterday. Seriously, where did the time go? Where did September go?

So much has happened since the last time I wrote and so much to be excited for! Let’s begin…

Firstly, work is going really well. I am really enjoying it, days are long in the season though and by the time you come home all you want to do is go to bed really, oh, except for Mondays…Monday nights is Grey’s Anatomy! Don’t get me wrong, I have had my cry already. But let’s admit it, if you don’t cry at least once during a season…something is wrong with you! A lot of things have changed as well, my “room-mate” has found a place in this world elsewhere with almost everything that was in the house. If she could take the grass around the house as well I think she would have. I am just so thankful for my awesome God and my amazing family who blessed me with so much stuff to fill my little house again. All things bad are out, and my cup overflows. I am so blessed!

“Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You have anointed my head with oil; My cup overflows. Surely goodness and loving kindness will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.…” Psalm 23:4-6

Work wise…almost three weeks of work has passed since my last post. We have had parades, owners, vets, photographers, surgery’s, fosters, sleepless nights…everything that could happen in one season, we have had in a couple of weeks. It has definitely kept me on my toes for sure.

I just can’t believe it’s October to be honest! No season has ever gone by so quickly. Maybe it’s because of the fact that I am staying for another year? Or I am just loving work so much I don’t even notice time going by. I am actually really excited about it, I am not going to give up on my dream of travelling the world but I think it will be very good for my career to stay here for a little bit longer. BUT, listen up! The biggest adventure is still on its way! My parents bought my little sister and I a ticket to NEW ZEALAND next year!!!! I cant believe I am going back, if there was one place in the world that I truly loved it would be New Zealand! I cant wait to take my sister there, and let it capture her heart the way it captured mine. Only problem is, we might not want to come back. #Sister adventure TAKE 2! ❤ Don’t ever tell me that the saying, “Everything happens for a reason” is not accurate, I believe it 110%. I didn’t get a visa to England next year because God has better plans!

Anyways, That’s work and future plans summed up. I cannot really say too much about work, because of blip blop boop boop, but it is just enough. I have had the BEST month so far with my family coming all the way to Robertson to visit me, and I feel somewhat recharged for a good while (and my fridge feels the same!) Although my heart feels a little empty without them, I long for the day where I have my own farm and we can all be together. Until then, let me learn as much as I can and work hard towards my goal. This life is a journey, let’s enjoy the ride!

It’s around 60 something days until I go home for Christmas then it’s the CTS Book 1 Yearling Sales and then it’s NEW ZEALAND! Isn’t it so awesome to have something so great to look forward to! I never want to end up doing the same routine everyday, only wishing for that grand trip or adventure, I never ever want to settle and just become comfortable because it is easy. I never want to stop learning, after all…

You do only live once but if you do it right, once is enough. Gary Player

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Time flies when your having fun!

 

Eighty-two days into my Robertson adventure, my fourth breeding season, and my second official job. I am still smiling and enjoying every single minute. There have been a lot of changes but they come in really gentle waves which makes it really easy to get used too. For instance, our days have been a pretty regular with 7:00 to 17:00 job with an occasional evening of foaling, but now we have officially begun the breeding season, everything is in full swing which includes getting up a little earlier, catching more foals, the boys (aka the Stallions) will officially start their jobs, we will be seeing a lot more of the vets and we will wake up before the sun and go home without it. That is the next few months in a short summary. With already thirty-eight foals on the ground we have had a run up to the breeding season to get us ready for vet work and treatments and all the crazy that comes with it. Thanks to this, I feel totally prepared!

A lot of times this week I have wanted to sit down and pour my heart out into a post, but my Mom has always said that you should never write when you are angry or upset. It’s been a hectic couple of weeks, like I said, a run up to the season. But also there have been unnecessary stress that doesn’t even belong here caused by things (or in fact, people) that are not worth wasting my breath on anymore. Perhaps a test? Why must there always be something or in fact someone who has to play with your happiness? It’s funny though, as much as it worries me, my happiness overtakes it times one hundred! It’s so funny actually! I am enjoying my job so much more than “they” think “they” are destroying it. Sorry, but I got some news for you. My God is greater, and He has got my back! I have worked TOO hard to get this far and for someone to destroy it!

I declare now that you are no match to my God, He holds my future and not you. I am not afraid of you!

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As much as I am happy where I am and so very thankful, I almost have an empty feeling I cannot really describe. You are probably all to familiar with that song, “I left my heart in San Fransisco…” well, I am pretty sure I left my heart somewhere on my adventures in New Zealand and Australia. I long with all my heart and soul to go back to that holiday I had with my sister in Australia. I would re-live those three weeks over and over again. I wished it would never end! How can you miss something so bad that it actually hurts! I wish I could just get us another plane ticket and go do it all over again! I actually think it’s a condition? I have got a serious condition, and the only cure is travel (preferably with my best friend aka my sister).

Well, as much as I wished I could turn back time…I have a wonderful, let me say that again, WONDERFUL job here and now. I am going to make the most of every minute and not waste any time. I am working towards that plane ticket! THAT is my goal, well, on top of my list of goals at least!

With long days ahead and lots of hard work I am looking forward to a busy week….I am focused and prepared for anything. My mind is ready and my goals are set! Watch out world, nothing can stand in my way! More exciting news is, tomorrow will be 10 days until I wrap my arms around my family! Yes, the Hammond’s are coming down to Robertson! I am so excited, I really just can’t hide it anymore! My boss asks me everyday how is my excited scale? Uuuuh, from 1 to 10…probably 100!

Anyways, good night and good-bye!

As I leave you, remember…

Time is free, but it’s priceless. You can’t own it, but you can use it. You can’t keep it but you can spend it. Once you’ve lost it, you can never get it back.

HARVEY MACKAY

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It Is Well

The past few weeks have gone by like a flash, everyday, every week, same routine. Every now and then a challenge came my way but you know, nothing I cannot handle. I know God has always got it under control. When I cannot simply see how everything is going to work out, it just does because He has a plan to prosper and not to harm. This is my verse for life and it’s what gets me through everyday.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

We now approximately have 20 foals on the ground at the moment, 15 of which I foaled. I am adding slowly but surely to my experience, coming into this job I felt a little rusty with my foaling. I am so confident now, I feel like I would be okay on my own. At long last! It just shows you that if you have someone who is willing to show you and teach you not for their own gain but because they really want to, how far you can actually go!

It’s been a learning curve everyday on this stud, I swear there is not a day that goes by that I don’t learn something! It has been rather refreshing working on a smaller stud and actually being in “charge” of a division. I always felt a little insignificant and my opinions did not really matter. I was just the quiet one in the background doing what I am told. Not without learning anything, that was my advantage! Of course, in the beginning you are going to feel like you are a nobody, technically you are! You cannot even dream of having the experience of some of the people in your field, the people who have been working there for the past fifteen years…they were once insignificant too.

I have big decisions to make next week, and future plans to make. My heart and my mind are in constant battle between reality and fantasy. When all your options are good which one do you choose? I just need to put it in God’s Hands and know that He has got it under control!

I am also a little home sick at the moment, and long for one more hug from my Mom, one more horse ride with my Dad, one more shopping session with my sister, one more family dinner. I just need to stress how important those things are, like the words to this song go…

Well you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go

You don’t really realize what you have until it’s not there anymore! I know we have all got to grow up sometime, but there is nothing wrong with missing home(especially when you have got the greatest family in the world).

Now that I am finished being highly sentimental, partly being of a small case of “homesickness”, and partly because my cat has gone walkabout again and he is out in one of the worst days of wind and rain since I have been here. He’ll be back!

So, it’s late and I did not want to leave another week without a little update. Let me end on a rather random but beautiful theory for the week. This week, let’s be pineapples, lets STAND TALL, WEAR A CROWN, AND BE SWEET ON THE INSIDE!

If it comes, let it. If it goes, let it.

If it comes, let it. If it goes, let it. Easier said than done…

Have you ever wished that you could somehow know what the future holds? What you will need, what you will have to do to make all your dreams come true, what road to take? Have you ever wished that what you plan would just come easy and everything would be right? You wouldn’t have to hit “bumps in the road” or make detours. On the other hand, you wont learn anything if everything comes easy and is handed to you on a silver plate. Do you see the dilemma? Would you take the opportunity to see what the future hold for you? will it be easier? will it be harder? I don’t think anyone knows for sure…I guess God likes to throw in those curve balls just when you think you got everything figured out just to make you realize that its not your plan, it is His.  I felt like I had or rather HAVE the perfect plan for the next few years and recently come across a little detour. The biggest trial now is, do you try harder…or accept the “signs” that have been put in front of you?

So as you can see, I have come across a conundrum, while on the one hand I am rather disheartened that my dreams have hit a pothole, I reckon that its not a bad thing either. Life on the farm is going really well, I am happy and comfortable…and (this has never happened before) I can see myself spending a little more time here even after the season. But does that mean that I am giving up on my dreams of being a travelling seasoner? Does it mean that I am just settling for easy?

Anyway, I am now a couple weeks into the season, I have gotten two foals already! I am just excited that I haven’t forgotten anything. I feel like I am in my happy place when I am knee deep in straw, sleeves pulled up passed my elbows, grasping a little head gently with my hands as i welcome a new foal into this world. Cant help thinking every time that this is exactly where I belong! 

Now that the season has officially started!  Things are getting much busier on the farm as well, I feel like the days are just not long enough to get everything done. I better have some kick-ass legs after this season with all this walking going on! I can feel a difference in myself since I have been here, my confidence is making a bigger and bigger appearance everyday. I am glad I have got to work with many a treatment since my first day here, bandages, abscesses, cuts, swollen legs (I tell you, you are never surprised with horses). I also realized today that no matter how much you have learned or experienced in this industry, there is always…I repeat, always something else to learn.

So, this is stud life at the moment. I am loving it at this farm, really LOVING it! (I am sure this is the second time I have stated this) For this reason alone, I am not worried about the future. God sent me here didn’t He, I know He has it all under control. Like I said though, easier said than done. I recently read this statement, “It’s good to be passionate about your dreams, but did you know a dream can actually become an idol? If it’s all you think about, and you’re not going to be happy unless it happens your way, that’s out of balance. The fact is, sometimes you have to release that dream back to the Father.” (Joel Osteen) I am so guilty of this…and I realize that I am probably trying to  accomplish this perfect “plan” but lets be honest life is far from perfect! I cannot do it all on my own, and there is no rush. Like the great Mr. Player stated, “You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough!”

 

Thriving, not just Surviving.

A lot has happened over the past two weeks, where do I begin? Firstly, the date is set and tickets are booked for when my family will make their way to Cape Town! I am so excited! I know it’s a month and a bit from now, but I just can’t wait! I cant wait to share this experience with them, I cant wait to share my life with them and most of ALL I cant wait for them to experience the reason I love my job so much which is helping a new life enter this world. Did i mention, I just can’t wait…only 52 days to go!

The second thing that has happened in the past two weeks…drum roll please…I now have a kitten?!? Yes, you read right, I have a kitten who I have named, Thomas. He was a stray cat living in one of the hay barns on the farm. It looked like he was the last surviving in his litter. There are some moments, where I wonder, “Why did you go and do that for Ashlee?” And then I come home and these big green eyes look up at me, and my heart just seems to smile. I know it’s a bigger responsibility looking after another life and it’s not like a have the expenses. I do know that God would not have blessed me with this little treasure if it wasn’t for a reason. I am enjoying having some company in this small, quiet house.

So, on this point alone, it already makes this season a lot different!

Around the farm…

Things around the farm are going pretty smoothly, we have now started getting ready for the season…sitting up, bringing the first group of mares in, opening them – which was my idea – foaling boxes and stables being prepared. It almost doesn’t feel real, I can’t believe another season is about to start. While we wait for the babies of course, we have been going about our stud jobs. My sick weanlings are doing so much better, I have gotten a lot of practice with all sorts of treatments so far…and not even for major things. I thank God for blessing me with this opportunity because I think I am going to get my confidence back this season! The biggest bonus of it all is that I am working under the coolest lady I think I have ever met on a stud farm. It is already fun going into work but she just makes it a blast!

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Well, that is all for now. Please go and like my NEW facebook page as well, where you can also be updated with much more on my daily adventures! www.facebook.com/FourBoots

My mission in life is not merely to survive; but to thrive. and to do so with some PASSION, some COMPASSION, some HUMOR, and some STYLE.

– maya angelou –

25 Days In.

Hello Again.

Today is the twenty-fifth day into my new season…which sounds like so little compared to the way it feels. I feel like I have been here for much longer, is that a bad thing? Let me elaborate on this quick, I only think it feels longer because of the experience that I have already gained since I have been here…not only for my career but my confidence as well…and the season hasn’t even started yet!

So, twenty-five days in and it just happens to be my off-weekend. I have literally done absolutely nothing except think about things I should rather be doing. Hey, what are off weekends for after all. I did make some progress today and washed my car (that’s a start!).

Lets get back to business, so what has happened since my last post, which would be about two weeks ago. I have been getting used to the routine around the farm and it’s going pretty well. I am “in charge” of the weanlings at the moment, as well as some treatments. I have done some pretty cool things with the vet and I have learned to work a pretty kick-ass blood machine, I have done so much already and like I have said…THE SEASON HASN’T EVEN STARTED! I have had my trails and errors so far, but that is all apart of life, we are not going to learn anything if we don’t get anything wrong will we?

The people are so nice, the farm is organised, I am not treated like just another clown at the circus. I feel like I fit in, at some times it feel so weird to actually be important. The other day, all the managers were having some milk tart that Mr. Italy brought in the office. I was busy doing something and realized everyone was gone…then got called to come and hang out and eat milk tart with everyone. It just takes some getting used to being somebody important, well, being a SOMEBODY.

I have also made a new friend here, his name is Captain. as usual he has four legs and has just managed to steal my heart. He’s a big, beautiful, retired racehorse. It’s nice to go and talk to someone after work and The Boss Man has also given me permission to ride him. All I need to do now is find some tack.

Other than work, my mind has been caught up in getting everything ready for England! My mind has been in my finances, my mind has been home, my mind has been on travelling, my mind has been on the future! But you can only accomplish one thing at a time, at the moment, I am HERE and NOW. Bring on the next 152 days!

Did I mention, I AM SO EXCITED!

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A New Adventure

Hello again, it’s that time again, time for another adventure.

My career has led me to a farm just outside of Cape Town, in a relatively small town called Robertson.  Robertson is known as the wine country…there are literally vineyards and cellars everywhere, and I am definitely not complaining! Nestled in the middle lies a beautiful stud called Highlands Farm, and this is where my new journey starts, my fourth stud season.

Today would be my fourteenth day here, but I technically started work twelve days ago. So, let’s see, in twelve days I have had to learn how everything runs here, and in between I have had my first weekend on, ALL BY MYSELF…I have had to learn names (a lot people and horses), I learned vaccinating, I have learned a quick confidence that I never knew I had and feel that it’s going to grow a lot more.

To be honest, I wasn’t sure if I was ready for this season, I had lost so much confidence in myself and I was not sure if I was ready. Until I got here, and I met the managers and I have  never felt more welcome in my life. Of course, I respect authority and the managers that have been here longer than I have and I cant wait to learn all that I can from them. They treat me as an equal, they treat me as one of them. I have worked so hard to be here right now, I started at the bottom and I am climbing the ladder of success.

The lesson that I learned is that God knows what He is doing, the time you spend climbing that ladder will be the most important time of your life. Dont get me wrong, I am not saying it’s going to be smooth sailing from now. The wind blows the hardest at the top of the mountain but the view is much clearer the higher you get.

I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW! I have a beautiful house, a company car, a horse that I can ride, i am five minutes from town (which has everything), I have wi-fi, cable,  an awesome job with awesome people…I can’t complain.  Every day I wake up with a new energy, and live a life people can only imagine in the most beautiful place my eyes have ever seen.

Only by God’s grace.

I will now end with this verse.

“But whatever I am now, it is all because God poured out his special favor on me – and not without results. For I have worked harder than any other apostles; yet it was not I but God who was working through me by his grace.” 1 Corinthians 15:10

That is all for now…short and sweet.

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Time Flies

Let me see, how exactly do I sum up the last eight months of my life? It’s going to be hard but I am going to give it a really good try, let’s begin.

On the 27th of August 2015, I got on a plane at O.R. Tambo, Johannesburg to fly to Auckland, New Zealand. I had no idea what awaited me for the next eight months ahead. I had kept a diary of my everyday happenings which turned into weekly and then monthly writing because I was either too upset to write or just too tired. I worked 24-7, with one day off every five days, plus a foaling night in between where we would foal five to six mares with no sleep and had to be at work at quarter to six that morning. It was definitely an eye-opening, life changing season in New Zealand for me. I gained immense knowledge for my field, and personal growth (and personal “death”) beyond what I thought possible.

Every farm that I have worked on have had their ways and their “traditions” and things they have done for generations as well as this farm. I don’t agree with half the stuff they do or how they run their business, but this job is about compromise and you will not learn anything if you keep doing things the way you were taught or the way everyone else does it.

Why fit in when you were born to stand out? Dr.Seuss

One of the reasons for doing seasons all over the world is to broaden your knowledge and the more you experience the better it is for your next job and the next and so on. For example, my New Zealand season I had done my first yearling preparation for the 2016 Karaka Sales in Auckland.  To be honest, no expected at all. My contract specified that I would be “assisting” in yearling prep but I did not realize that is what I was going to be doing full time. I had only ever prepared a handful of yearlings in college but that was nothing compared to what was waiting for me in New Zealand. The only time I had worked with mares and foals was when the yearlings were out all day and there was nothing to do, plus the additional foal watch once a week which (by the way) was THE most excruciating  foaling season of my life. I had never seen so many problems and experienced so much pain (personally) before. In the beginning of the foaling season we had had a death, orphaned foal, or dummy foal almost every week. In conjunction with trying to keep your horses alive and save a precious little soul you would have your spirit ripped from your chest, slowly and painfully, and crushed into a million pieces by a heartless human being whilst all you are trying to do, is do your best and do your job the best way you know possible.  As usual I found a way to get through it, the funniest thing was EVERYONE felt the same, and I am glad I had those friends that was able to put a bandage on my wounds and I was able to carry on, even if it was only a single word, a friendly wink, or a reassuring smile…IT HELPED and it was all I needed. It wasn’t all moonlight and roses, I did experience the worst of the worst but I also experienced the best! I had the best foaling team, a wonderful kiwi man and a hilarious Irishman. Whatever we went through and whatever the season threw at us, there was always a pat on the back and a laugh at the end of the shift. Nothing brings you closer than laying in the rain stricken grass at one in the morning while it is still pouring down with rain and you can’t see more than three meters in front of you, your partners tugging on these spider long legs whilst I had a little face in my arms as we bring a new little champion into the world. People ask me why I love my job, and this is why…seeing this precious face as it has its first look of this world, as it has its first sneeze, as it tries to figure out how to use its legs. I just cannot put this feeling into words, there is a part of my heart and deeper; my soul which belongs to them.

I just cannot put this feeling into words, there is a part of my heart and deeper; my soul which belongs to them.

So, that was foaling. The yearling preparation was another adventure all to itself. It was a good experience but I wished it had been under different circumstances. It’s a pity that this had to be my first yearling prep, because after this one I thought that I would never be able to do another yet not one but many people told me that they had never done a season like this in their life. Every day was a struggle and there was not one day that went by that someone wasn’t crying or someone wasn’t made to feel like they were as useful as a handful of dirt. I am not going to elaborate much on the yearling preparation (due to many political and other reasons). Although, it was not the greatest of times, there were still good memories, there were still times that we had laughed until our stomach hurt and there were times were we made lifelong friends. I had learned to handle yearlings and one MAJOR thing that I had learned is that I am NOT too small, and I am NOT too weak to do this job, and I definitely CAN do ANYTHING! (Excuse the emphasis!)

I am determined that I will do another yearling preparation and I will do other sales which I WILL do well. This is not going to get me down; it was just a little hurdle on my way to the top. I did not just trip over this hurdle I fell over and face planted…but I have dusted myself off and I have got a new pair of trainers on, I am ready to get running again.

Overall, this season was a roller coaster season of ups and downs, of love and heartbreak, of friends and enemies, of trial and error, and of failure and success.

I must also say that I definitely made THE best out of my day off. I made sure that I was going to use EVERY single hour, every minute, and every second of that day to the best of my ability. I had done things that no one could every take away from me and made memories that will last a lifetime. After all, we are all writing a book through our life and I want my pages to be filled with the best stories ever written. I don’t want to look back in life and think, “I WISH I DID THAT!”

I thought I was finished writing but I just need to give some credit to the PEOPLE that I had met on my adventure. Two people in particular need more credit than I can give. This couple took me in as their own, they gave me transport in a foreign country, they gave me food, they have me a home, most of all they gave me love when I felt like there was no more love left in the world. I realized that there are still amazing people left in the world and I still cannot come to terms how you can do this for someone you don’t even know. There is only one explanation and that is they were more than human beings…they were my guardian angels and I hope that they read this because I don’t just owe them this thanks I owe them more than I could ever give.

THANK YOU!

As with every season you meet people from all over the world, this time one man in particular from Ukraine (out of all places) found a special place in my heart. We had a rocky beginning but I tell you, there is no one I would trust more with my life than that guy! He had always been there when I needed him and had the best pair of shoulders that could carry all his problems yet could fit all of mine as well.

As with my fair share of kiwi’s (remember the Nicolas Sparks guy in particular) there had also been an Irishman, there had been an English girl, there had been  Japanese, and there had been people that have come and gone too quick to realize. Every one of them at an impact on my life and I just hope I had the same effect on them too.

It is just impossible to sum up so much in your life in enough words to make sense and yet not too many words that I bore you to death.

To summarize, if someone would ask me, “Would you do it again?” my answer would be, “YES, I would do it all again!”